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(2 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[23 Jun 2005|11:37pm]
[ mood | bored ]

ok so i havent wrote in this thing for awhile but just to catch everyone up on some things..i got my license..even though it took 2 trys lol..uh i started work yesturday...=/..guess thats cool....and a little while ago brads dad died...yea...it was a shock for me..like it still hasent sunk in yet...i really dont have time for anything cuz im trying to juggle my new schedule with work and be there for brad and things have just been real crazy latley...for those wondering about me n brad..besides his dad...things couldnt be any better...at first i had a few doubts but now im pretty positive that hes the right one for me right now and i couldnt be any happier than with him...but yea...well i better get to bed...work tomorrow..=(...

(2 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[30 May 2005|10:04pm]
[ mood | HANG OVER!! =/ ]

well its been awhile scince i updated last..ive been really busy latley...well its monday night n i just got back from spending the weeknd up in ohio..and i thought it was going to be really boring but to tell you the truth it was dank as hell! my cousin emily is living with my g-ma now so i got to spend the whole time with her n she has a car so we got to go ne where we wanted...last night she took me to this party out in the middle of nowhere ..and it was in a barn...?...haha but it was soo much fun..got shit faced...n yea..not gonna go into detail but what happend up there stays up there right?...well my birthdays on sunday..the 5th ..my sweet 16! =)...should be fun..dont know what im doin yet ...prolly just chillen with some friends...then about 4 days after that i get my license! YAY! thank the lord! that cant come soon enough...this week chillen with my friends...julia n kaitlyn wanna chill so ill be with them more than likley...but call me up if you wanna chill...this might be the last post for awhile...summer gets kinda hectic you know...=)! later..<3 caitlin

(4 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[17 May 2005|06:19pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

well i wish i could say that everythings good with me ..but its ..not..first, me n brad..one minute everythings great and then the next his mood changes or i say something wrong....and he gets mad..starts being an asshole..hurts my feelings and yea..im just really getting tired of walking into biology almost every day, in tears..it sucks..but i dunno..i really do love that boy to death and i care about him so much...we just have some problems we need to work out i guess?...
i really dont know whats up with my "friends" ...there all mad at me or just dont talk to me ne more..i dunno its gay..ive worried about it too much already so im just gonna forget about it alltogether...i mean besides the ones who matter im not gonna know them in 10 years ne way..so whats the point...they can get over it if they want and if not oh well...i know this sounds really fucked up but im just sick worrying about everybodys shit...whatever.

damn this school year cant end soon enough....

(1 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[10 May 2005|07:36pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

*1 month*...went by fast as hell!

(3 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[08 May 2005|05:28pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

this weekend couldv been better

friday chilled with brad

saturday chilled with brad

sunday chilled with my mommy

next weekend should be better..mel wants to chill so yea..

kaitlyn, sorry to hear about your uncle..i hope everythings okay with you..

oh how i love loosing friends...not going to the beach for my bday ne more..already made up my mind...think ill stay here n invite some people over...?...what a fucking great time huh?!

(3 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[04 May 2005|09:04pm]
[ mood | you.... ]

you....i want to call you and i want us to talk again and be friends again but im SO scared that if i let you back into my life those feelings i had for you are gonna come back and all there going to do is hurt me...i dont think anyone knows how much you meant to me..not even you...and nothing good ever came out of them...i dunno...i sound stupid...lemme stop....

(3 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[30 Apr 2005|05:41pm]
[ mood | used... ]

yea this weekend has been really fun so far...uh friday after school i went home with winkler.. cavi came too...then me n cavi went to brads baseball game...then i went to brads house then out to dinner at micasitas with brad liz n chris...uh ate.. then drove around with liz for awhile then went to beckys* house n spent some time with becky*..we got drunk off our ass n called brad n his bro to come back over..well then they brung liz, chris, richard, n luke...and some more beer..lol...i had so much fun! omg...and..something REALLY bad happend with me n brad but i wast really thinkin at the time cuz i was drunk but neadless to say i almost got taken advantage of...and i must say it feels great..=(....dont know what im doin tonight..prolly stayin at melanies house again..geting shit faced with brad n adam...nikki wants to chill so maybe ill be with her tonight too?...well ill tell you about tonight tomorow...have fun this weekend yall..


*names have been changed to conseal identity...lol..yea

(3 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[25 Apr 2005|03:32pm]
[ mood | sick ]

blah im sick...

ah do i love beach boys...lol...but brad even more <33

(2 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[19 Apr 2005|07:40pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

we ate popcorn and watched the Rocky Horror Picture show, it was quite nice actually.

(Bite Me)

[18 Apr 2005|07:29pm]
[ mood | flirty ]

went to the movies with mel last night and saw sin city which soo fucking awesome...i felt do bad tho cuz brad wanted me to go eat dinner with him..i already made plans tho..but yea i think hes pissed at me cuz im goin to the beach with kaitlyn and he thinks ima cheat on him...which is stupid...lol why would i do that?! right kailtyn lol...nah but for real...i wouldnt...haha tomorrows our 1 week anniversary OMG!! haha im gay...lol...but yea ima go call lisa now...love yall!

im always thinking about you when i know i shouldnt, i just wish we couldve worked it out before something like this came along...no one could take your place...im saving it for you babe

(1 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[16 Apr 2005|07:24pm]
[ mood | thinking... ]

this weekends has been pretty chill..last night went to the movies w/ lisa n kaitlyn..oh and brad came too =)..uh we went to see the amittyville horror which was scary as shit...i almost pissed my pants lol...seriously..tonight babysitting audrann while tim n wendy go to the races...might chill with cory a lil bit..?...but yea there bout to leave so ill update when i can love yall!

you dont know what you had until you loose it...huh?...call me.....

(1 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[10 Apr 2005|07:42pm]
[ mood | bored ]


+ Your name: Caitlin
+ Your gender: Female
+ Age: 15
+ Height: 5'3 1/2
+ Hair color: blonde
+ Eye color: greenish-brown
+ Fears: ugh..clowns =/


+ Fallen off the bed: when i was little...and like a week ago lol
+ Fallen for a relative: ew...gross
+ Had plastic surgery: Nope
+ Broke someone's heart: yeah..unfortunatly
+ Had your heart broken: yep...=/
+ Had a dream come true: Once...i think
+ Done something you regret: Who hasn't?
+ Cheated on a test: How do you think I made A's and b's?
+ Broken a body part: do fingernails count?


+ Wearing: jeans and cami
+ Listening to: goin' crazy -Natalie
+ Chewing: Nothing
+ Feeling: okay i guess
+ Reading: This survey
+ Located: computer room
+ Chatting with: winkler and funky
+ Watching: Nothing
+ Should REALLY be: Probably doing chores...?


+ Brush your teeth? twice a day everyday
+ Like anybody? hmm a couple
+ Have any piercings? 5..ears, cartilage, tragus, and belly
+ Drive? two more months mann! i cant freakin wait!
+ Believe in Santa Claus? as long as i get presents from him then yea lol
+ Ever get off the computer? yeah


+ Do you belong to a crew? i dont think so.
+ Do you hang out with the opposite sex? of coarse
+ Do you consider yourself popular? hhmm not really
+ Do you trust your friends? They wouldn't be friends if I didn't
+ Are you a good friend? id hope so?
+ Can you keep a secret? yea ...if needed


+ Hugged: brad
+ Talked to on the phone: james
+ Yelled at: my brother for being an ass hole to tiff
+ Turned down: uh..brett i think


+ What do you want to be when you grow up? the president..lol...seriously
+ What was the worst day of your life? ....not gonna say
+ What has been the best day of your life? ...not gonna say
+ What comes first in your life? family and friends
+ Do you have a boyfriend? almost
+ If you had an extra set of eyes where would you put them? uh on my butt so id know when people were lokking at it lol
+ What do you usually think about before you go to bed? people...


+ Song: burning bright - shinedown
+ Movie: kill bill vol.1 + 2 + the notebook
+ Band: killswitch engage
+ Store: victorias secret
+ Relative: my cousin emily
+ Sport: any sport where guys wear tight uniforms is my fav.
+ Vacation Spot: Orlando
+ Fruit: bananas lol
+ Candy: anything chocolate
+ Holiday: halloween
+ Day of the Week: Friday
+ Color: green
+ Magazine: glamour?..
+ Name for a Girl: Baylee madison
+ Name for a Boy: triston


+ Like to give hugs? to some people
+ Sleep with or without clothes on? kinda in between lol
+ Prefer black or blue pens? black
+ Dress up on Halloween? of coarse i do
+ Like to travel? Depends on where I'm going
+ Sleep on your side, tummy, or back? all
+ Think you're attractive? i dunno...on good days
+ Want to marry? if i find the right person
+ Have a goldfish? i did...they did too fast tho
+ Ever have the falling dream? yep
+ Have stuffed animals? a couple
+ Go on vacation? Yep


+ Abortion: im for it if its totally nessesary
+ Eating Disorders: Sad.
+ Tattoos: love them....cant wait till im 18
+ Piercings: Love them...want some more actually
+ Make-up: i hate wearing it..but i need it so i deal
+ Guys: Annoying as hell but some are good
+ Girls: other than my friends...almost all of them are bitches

(1 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[08 Apr 2005|08:54pm]
[ mood | how i normally am... ]

well alot of shit has been going on latley...its too much to say on here but ill try and cover most of it...my mom took me to a shrink yesturday for my "problem" and depression and over all it was..okay...i was planning on going there and not talking the entire time and being a total smart ass but i figured that wouldnt help the situation at all so i talked to her...and shes actually pretty cool..i felt alot better cuz she explained to my mom that im not weird or ne thing for doing it...im just having a hard time growing up and i think it was a slap in the face for my mom..which was good...i love being right lol

me and Brad are talking now and from what kaitlyn told me hes gonna ask me out soon...i really do like him alot...and kaitlyn, i really need to know if your going to be pissed at me for going out with him b/c i dont want to risk our friendship over brad..like erika and pat...your one of my best friends and i dont ever want to hurt you...its just that i need to try and make myself happy because i havent been in a long time...i can fake it until i break and im seriously almost at that point...i need to put my bad desicions in the past behind me and i really think that going out with brad would help...but i care more for you than ANY guy ...so please talk to me and tell me how you REALLY feel ok babe?

well i was gonna chill with brad tonight but his brother got his phone taken away so i guess were gonna have to pospone that for tomorrow night...im gonna see if james can come over and chill...i want to chill with my friends but there all busy with..each other...i dunno it seems like there kinda leaving me out but i know there not its just my mom and her being a bitch..but yea...im prolly gonna spend the night at wendys house saturday night and scince ill be in the neighborhood i might call cory up so we can chill?...ok well my hand hurts from typing so much so ill update later...

oh, and brad has a baseball game on tuesday that he wants me to go to and i want someone to come with me..if you wanna then tell me

(2 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[05 Apr 2005|08:58pm]
[ mood | angry ]

ok an update on me and brett..we dont talk anymore..my decision cuz i found out he was bi...even tho i think gay guys are hot (some of them) i dont think i wanna get with one EW!!

me n my mom are STILL having problems...and it sucks so fuckin bad...i miss lisa and kaitlyn..i havent talked to them or chilled with them in forever =(

i cant say it on here cuz it would upset some people but i heard the funniest shit today! OMG! it was really gross too..kaitlyn n courtny know what im talking about..HAHA!

ok got a spanish prueba to study for...update soon!


(1 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[02 Apr 2005|11:07am]
[ mood | loved ]

have you ever had one of those "movie star" moments where you walk out of a building or something and when he/she passes you everthings in slow motion and you know that your meant for each other..lol i know this sounds gay but its the most awesomest feeling in the world!!! =)

..oh, and his name is brett

(2 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[30 Mar 2005|11:55pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

eh today was ok i guess..im up late and have nuthin to do so i thought i would update...lets see i woke up early to go shopping with my mom..uh got home and like 5 minutes later zack n steven came over and and we hung out a lil bit...then did some chores and james came over...we talked about so much stuff that i dunno..ive had built up inside of me so it was really good to get to see and talk to him =)...uh ok well i have nuthin else to write so ill update whenever i get a chance..


(5 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[28 Mar 2005|07:12pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

yea me n melanie went to the beach this weekend and it was fuckin awesome...we had soo much fun! friday we went mini golfing and me n melanie walked around the pavilion n got henna tattoos....uh saturday we went to the ocean n went tanning and later that night we went to the attic..this teen club..that was SO much fun..i met these two guys..josh n aaron..OH my jesus they were frickin hot! they were best friends n there from charlotte...im still talkin to josh n he wants to come visit so well see how that turns out =)...uh...sunday we went shopping and did almost nuthing else...and monday we went shopping some more and came home...so overall it was a pretty good trip....dont know what im doing the rest of spring break..prolly chllin with zack n steven ..but im at melanies house right now so ill update later..hope yall are having agood spring break!! love yall! -Caitlin


oh yea..got my cell phone back!! call me up!


i love the beach!Collapse )

(1 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[19 Mar 2005|03:53am]
[ mood | numb ]

i saw my very first hooker today and i must say....it was so awesome!! lol...nah but seriously, we had to drive down bragg blvd for something and yep there she was...myy first hooker i ever saw in real life...hhmm so exzilerating..lol

uh i just got back from jordains house..it was chill i guess...we watched saw for like the 8687090989 time i went over there...then yea...went home....oh and christian was over there...=/

the whole thing with my mom is getting better but no relationship can go back the way it was before and i doubt me n my mom will ever be close..=/....oh well...still no phone but i try n sneak on at night...

ok well im gonna go watch some porn....lol..

(5 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[14 Mar 2005|01:12am]
[ mood | disappointed ]

its late and i cant fall asleep...my moms up in raleigh for tonight and maybe tomorrow night too and i wanna sneak out really bad but the only place i can go is christians house...jordains out with her brother getting shit faced...and im here...at home...i dunno i guess in about 30 minutes ill leave...heres how i bet it will go...we'll be sitting there watching movies smoking a few cigs..then he'll put his arm around me and tell me how much he misses being with me and then ill get up...tell him were just friends..and tell that long ass speach i know so well..then tell him its getting late and i should go home...hhmm i wish jordain was here...guess ill leave in a lil while so peace out nigs....

Kenneth good luck with your game tomorrow..and elana =) ...much love....

(1 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[13 Mar 2005|09:28am]
[ mood | words cant explain.. ]

yea i was listening to one of my old n'sync cds ...hell yes...lol...and this song came on and it reminded me of someone...so i thought id put it on here.....

I just don't understand
Why you're running from a good man baby
Why you wanna turn your back on love
Why you've already given up
See I know you've been hurt before
But I swear I'll give you so much more
I swear I'll never let you down
Cause I swear it's you that I adore
And I can't help myself babe
Cause I think about you constantly
and my heart gets no rest over you

You can call me selfish
But all I want is your love
You can call me hopeless (hopeless)
Cause I'm hopelessly in love
You can call me unperfect
But who's perfect?
Tell me what do I gotta do
To prove that I'm the only one for you
What's wrong with being selfish?

I'll be taking up your time
Until the day I make you realize
That for your there could be no one else
I just gotta have you for myself
Baby I would take good care of you
No matter what it is you're going through
I'll be there for you when you're in need
Baby believe in me
If love was a crime
Then punish me
I would die for you
Cause I don't want to live without you
Oh what can I do?

You can call me selfish
But all I want is your love
You can call me hopeless (hopeless)
Cause I'm hopelessly in love
You can call me unperfect
But who's perfect?
Tell me what do I gotta do
To prove that I'm the only one for you

Why do you keep us apart
Why won't you give up your heart
You know that we're meant to be together
Why do you push me away
All that I want is to give you love
Forever and ever and ever and ever

You can call me selfish
But all I want is your love
You can call me hopeless (hopeless)
Because I'm hopelessly in love
You can call me unperfect
But who's perfect?
Tell me what do I gotta do
To prove that I'm the only one for you

Selfishly I'm in love with you
Cause I've searched my soul
and know that it's you
Selfishly I'm in love with you
Cause I've searched my soul
and know that it's you
Selfishly I'm in love with you
Cause I've searched my soul
and know that it's you..

To prove that I'm the only one for you
So what's wrong with being selfish, selfish, selfish, selfish...
So what's wrong with being selfish...



(Bite Me)

[12 Mar 2005|12:00pm]
[ mood | sad ]

'It might seem strange to start a story with an ending. But all endings are also beginnings. we just dont know it all the time.'

(11 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[11 Mar 2005|10:43am]
[ mood | disappointed ]

i think i might move

my mom n me are having some problems and alot of my friends are mad at me or just dont talk to me anymore so i have the option to move up to ohio with my aunt n cousins...i dunno..its complicated?...i have to think about it some more..i get off being grounded on monday so call me up on monday n ill talk to you about it...

(2 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[27 Feb 2005|03:25pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

I know this poem is really long but its soo good..so when you have the time read it!

Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Chops"
Because that was the name of his dog
And thats what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
And a gold star
And his mother hung it on the kitchen door
and read it to his aunts
That was the year that Father Tracy
took all the kids to the zoo
And he let them sing on the bus
And his little sister was born
with tiny toenails and no hair
And his mother and father kissed alot
And the girl around the corner sent him a
Valentine with a row of X's
and he had to ask his father what the X's meant
And his father always tucked him in at night
And was always there to do it

Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Autum"
because thats what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and asked him to write more clearly
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because of its new paint
And the kids told him
that Father Tracy smoked cigars
And left butts on the pews
And sometimes they would burn holes
That was the year his sister got glasses
with thick lenses and black frames
And the girl around the corner laughed
when he asked he to go see Santa Claus
And the kids told him
why his mother and father kissed alot
And his father never tucked him in at night
And his father got mad
when he cried for him to do it

Once on a paper torn from his notebook
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Innocence:A question"
because that question was about his girl
And thats what it was all about
And his professor gave him an A
And a strange steady look
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because he never showed her
That was the year that father Tracy died
And forgot how the end
of the Apostle's Creed went
And he caught his sister
making out on the back porch
And his mother and father
never kissed or even talked
And the girl around the corner
wore too much makeup
That made him cough when he kissed her
but he kissed her anyway
because that was the thing to do
And at Three a.m. he tucked himself into bed
his father snoring soundly

Thats why on the back of a brown paper bag
he tried another poem
And he called it "Absolutly Nothing"
Because thats what it was really all about
And he gave himself an A
and a slash on each damned wrist
And he hung it on the bathroom door
because he didnt think
he could reach the kitchen

(1 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[26 Feb 2005|08:24pm]
[ mood | Horny/Frazzled lol ]

today was good...jordain came over and we watched AVP..i saw it first at the movies but either way it still sucked..

mmm...went to the movies with kenny, melanie, tiff, eva, and my bro tonight..saw hide and seek..it was so stupid..if any of you are thinking about going to see it..dont.....well the movie sucked but that didnt ruin my good time =) lol

Me n cavi are planning to have our sweet sixteen party together...scince my b-day is june 5th and school is already out were gonna have on friday the 13th in may...its just an idea now and we have some more stuff to plan but its gonna be at Itz...and were inviting a shit load of people...but yea...

yea i broke the whole "thing" off with matt after i came back from the movies...we just..i dunno..had nothing in common..at all...

still working on finishing 'The Perks of being a wallflower'...

-"I just think its bad when a boy looks at a girl and thinks that the way he sees the girl is better than the girl actually is."-

(2 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[26 Feb 2005|01:57am]
[ mood | contemplative ]

-Five minutes of a lifetime were truly spent, and we fely young in a good way-

..yea im readin 'the perks of being a wallflower' and im just now getting to the begging of the second part..its really good ..i dont usually read books cuz it takes me a while to read a page and understand it (i like to zone out alot lol) but this book is worth the time..lol

-We accept the love we think we deserve-

(3 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[22 Feb 2005|08:56pm]
[ mood | bored ]

what woudl you do if:
I committed suicide:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I lived next door to you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got into a fight and you weren't there:
[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?

(3 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[21 Feb 2005|08:56pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

tina you fat lard come get some dinner......


(7 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[19 Feb 2005|02:50pm]
[ mood | bored ]

I ____ Caitlin.
Caitlin is ____.
If I were alone in a room with Caitlin, I would ____.
I think Caitlin should ____.
Caitlin needs ____.
Caitlin will never ____.
I want to _____ Caitlin.
Caitlin can ____ my _____.
When I think about Caitlin, I ____.
Someday Caitlin will _____.
Caitlin reminds me of _____.
Without Caitlin, ____.
Memories of Caitlin are ____.
Caitlin can be ____.
____ is how I describe meeting Caitlin.
Worst thing about Caitlin is ____.
Best thing about Caitlin is _____.
Caitlin _____.

scottie dosent know
that fiona and me
do it in my van every sunday

she tells him shes in church
but she doset go
still shes on her knees and
scottie dosent know, scottie dosent know, scottie dosent know..

(1 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[19 Feb 2005|01:18pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

KeepOnRockin34 [1:52 PM]: caitlin i really like you
KeepOnRockin34 [1:52 PM]: your pretty damn awesome

seriously kaitlyn i cant stop smiling! lol

im bored.....

kenneth makes me wanna lala....haha

dude im so effing frazzled its not even funny...i need some poon so bad!

(1 Watched me Bleed | Bite Me)

[18 Feb 2005|11:16pm]
[ mood | flirtatious lol ]

this weekend should be pretty fun
i couldnt do ne thing tonight cuz jeremy and kate came in to visit and there staying with us for a couple days..but tomorrow im going over to kaitlyns house ..i think were goin to the movies or the mall i dunno..and then sunday im going to smithfeild with her n her mom to go shopping! =) yay..then shes prolly coming over to my house to stay the night with me..so yea...if yall wanna chill with us at the movies or ne thing call us up...

KeepOnRockin34 [11:13 PM]: i'll take you the candy shop
KeepOnRockin34 [11:13 PM]: i'll let you lick the lollipop
URblondieNo1 [11:13 PM]: haha nice

<3333 hhhmmmm ...dude...matt fuckin leader..lol yea..<333

gay porn it the fucking hot shit...guys of coarse lol

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